...to be coached..
From the outside looking in, you cant see from outside of your own bubble. Perhaps you need to be told what to do, following conversations about how u feel and what is going on in your life (work, work trips, ill kids, your own illness)
Well I am certainly slow on the uptake. And it is a good idea. But I wouldn't know how to set it up. And I am not sure I could surrender control.
Find someone you trust, surrender control for 4-6 months... And see if it helps! You're a man who likes to try everything, here is something you haven't tried (and might just work)