Last time round you built up to an impressively consistent volume of training. Regular daily running of a similar volume, going out once or twice a day - all very consistent.
The 2 bigger weeks and, presumably, you broke.
obviously I'm guessing at why there is a 4 month gap in your AP log
But here's the thing - if you want to build up to long distance events then weekly volume achieved through day in day out mileage is just going to wear you down.
Big long runs need rest and recovery - I did a biggy about every 2 weeks when training up for BG and Ramsey attempts.
Check out my log from early 2009, late 2010, 11 and 12 -
That's not why there is a 4 month gap in my AP. Plus a gold, silver, and bronze from the JK, SOC, and BOC relays respectively should indicate it wasn't a complete gap. But yea, those two big weeks, or perhaps certain sessions within them, were certainly beyond the breaking point. However, I was very open to people who I talked with about my plan for increasing things until I found where the limit was and things broke down.
The goal of going for longer events was made at a time when I didn't really know what to aim for. But once I started training properly it became apparent that I still had the pace to race. And once I got about 12 weeks in the bank I started to think I could start to win things.
But just when I'd found the limit, and needed a few easy weeks to let things settle, I got ill. I was asked a lot of times how my "injury" was, but the last time I was unable to train due to an injury was September after Euromeeting. I in fact got very ill, and not for the first time. This illness was not related to training. Up to now, when asked, I've said it was related to my pre-existing cardiac issues. However that's not the case, rather just an easy way of giving people and answer they'll believe and ends the conversation. What I actually had was severe depression. It's a battle I've been fighting on and off for over 15 years, and one that very few people know about. Sometimes it's easy, sometimes it's hard. And when it's hard you can't do the things you want to do, or even the things you have to do.
I'm glad that you have opened up about depression.
And now that more people know I think you'll find there is lots of support.
How it works, how we can help when it comes, I don't know but if we can we will.
More athletes suffer from depression and don't post about it on AP, like a mental illness isn't something you talk about on your training log. Bollocks. If it affects your training it affects your training. The trouble is that it's not an easy one to ask for help on. But help, people can, in all sorts of ways. The easiest way is to tell you that we're all rooting for you. The hardest way is to do something more tangible. But if we don't know then we can't help, can't even be positive and try to be supportive with words. We're a small well-connected community who look out for our kind. And we usually know someone who might be able to help. The important thing is that you don't go it alone. You're not alone. You're part of a big family. Always welcome chez Inman (I can't always help, other than beer and banter, but I usually know a (wo)man who can. Great to see you back posting. It's not the first time you've gone AP-quiet, I'd like to help try to make sure it's the last.....
Brave of you to open up about it - I hope it helps knowing others know and are able/willing to help in any way. Good luck for the future - and keep posting on AP ;-)
You're also welcome to make use of our spare room in Madrid if you fancy some warm weather training and a bit of a time out. Good cycling and running here.
Better make that visit soon while you are still allowed.
Scottish Independence it is then!