Relays are fun, and so easy to beat yourself up on. I'm guessing you ran second, after Jordan? That's challenging for anyone, he's fast and accurate, and the temptation is to fly off to maintain whatever he's come in with. It's hard to focus with all that in addition to running in an international race, and I'm sure that didn't help your panicked sense of "oh )(*#%" when #4 wasn't where you thought you should see it.
Perhaps we should come up with an "oh )(@*#%" battle drill...it happens to us all, but what we do in the 30 seconds after realizing something isn't quite right makes the difference between an error of a few minutes and one that becomes interminable.
I remember Jon telling the team early on that they were allowed one "hunch" before they had to bail to something definite to relocate, no matter how far out that something seemed. Cadets being fast runners, once they knew where they were it was easy to fix mistakes, and we started seeing those 45 minute errors drop to 10 minutes, and then into single digits.
Anyway, I think you should take the whole experience as a good chance for lessons learned. Your first international team starts, first chance to see a really packed start window and experience head-to-head racing on a massive, elite-only level (did they fork?), and some challenging terrain to top it off. We have to come up with some strategies on the long, but overall you had a great debut and I bet you've got some experience you can really apply as you progress as a competitor. Great start!
Thanks for the support Ma'am!