I wonder if that's because you're looking at a ridiculously high percentile type person.
If you compare yourself to the masses, you are light years ahead. Even on AP, you are what 400 ish out of 16000? Hardly shabby!
These super achiever types of peers require a certain "well, that's them and I'm me" mindset, or else a few unfollows, or some combination, I think, or at least for me it does.
Much of what you write feels very familiar. Sometimes life throws things at us that, on paper, really don't seem like they should prevent us from training, but they do!
@Cristina, I've had the impression we've both been going through a (hopefully temporary) low.
@Mr. W, that's kind, thanks. I don't compare training with others too often. When I said "most of them handle it better than I have", I meant there are lots of people with multiple, stressful distractions like full time jobs, kids and their activities, sick relatives, part-time studies, home renovation projects and other things that kick their lives around and make them feel out of control. It's probably the norm, actually. Yet many of them still feel like running, lifting weights, volunteering at events, etc. Some of them say it keeps them sane and gives them energy to deal with everything else.
I've reacted to new stressors in the opposite way by reducing my training by 2.5+ hours per week this year - not because the time couldn't be found but because the enthusiasm couldn't be found, and I was busy eating chocolate instead. (Yes, a weight loss goal is in my future.) That's what I think most people handle better than me, whether their goal is 200 hours or 800 hours. This has come as a surprise to me; I didn't think my motivation could be crushed.
Anyway, Happy New Year and thanks for the feedback! :)
I think most people react in much the same way. I feel I managed to get time in, but much of it wasn’t especially good quality training. My motivation plummeted and was most visible in that if I found a reason not to train in the morning, I typically just didn’t bloody feel like it in the afternoon.
And maybe the longish ‘rest’ is ok. Maybe the body needs it from time to time. Though it would be nice if it meant the sore parts all stopped being sore.
I do think a big event is a good motivator. The Ride to Conquer Cancer gave me that for a while, but now that I know I can do that handily, I need to try something bigger.
You've had an especially difficult couple of years in the "external forces" department, and for the most part, I consider you to be one of the people who doesn't let that get in the way. But I have sensed that your motivation has been flagging a bit this year.
I discovered just now that your training for both 2017 and 2018 was 554 hours and almost the same number of minutes! That's down a few hours from 2016 but still damned impressive, especially considering that your "leisure" time is often spent building Habitat for Humanity homes. Time to pick a fun event to work toward.
You're being hard on yourself. We all go through those moments in our training, when we think I should have done more or better.....but what counts is we're doing our best and still get out there as much as we can and our circumstances allow.
Good thing is, we continue to set new goals and strive to achieve them!
Here is to an awesome 2019! :)
Thanks, Myka. I'm working to get 2019 off to a better start and I hope the motivation will follow.
There was a time I was that guy. 15 minutes of stretches, 10-15 minutes of weights then a spirited 3 games of squash, invariably against someone much better than me so I ran around a lot. Back when I lived within 10 minutes of both the club and the office.
And you still got to work early. Jerk. Lol!!