Stop being a bender and scrutinising every performance and putting pressure on yourself. Just get out there and enjoy being in the hills. Don’t race if you’re ill or just go into it knowing you won’t be able to perform at your best.
I know fell runners tend to race all the time but I don’t see why? I wouldn’t race a 5km every week to get ready for a 5km race? You could easily have done this run on your own at a good effort and then wouldn’t feel bad when you compare yourselves to others in the race. Surely it’s best to build up a bit of consistency, confidence and fitness before racing?
Fell runners race often but not aiming to perform at all of them - they're useful sessions. And part of the ethos is general ambivalence to performance, you shrug, realise it's not your day and just enjoy the experience.
Also you go 'feeling very tired' then whack out a 2.5h run the next day. Working out how to balance work and training also takes a while - I'm going through it for the 2nd time and still making mistakes!
Also jumping straight in after Jukola? Everyone knows Jukola takes a lot out of you!
Surely your constant social media hype just generates more pressure?
I was going to write similar but couldn't quite work out how to put it.
You're all right. Been trying to cram too much in and need to focus on what's actually important. I've taken a step back in the last couple of weeks and have a more solid plan and idea of where I'm heading. Cheers all!