I've decided to ban myself from saying I'm slow, although "I felt slow" is fine. I think for me speed is the same as happiness, in that I will never think I fast if I say I will be fast when I get a certain time. I never thought I was quick at swimming or running. I have a feeling that unless I became an Olympian or something similar I would always think I'm slow. I'm hoping that if every time I catch myself saying/writing it I deal with the thought then tell myself I'm fast, then maybe one day ill start to believe it. That way it will become more about getting faster, rather than getting less bad.