Monthly update (post exams)
Exams took a lot out of me and was worried how long it would take to recover. I always find the point where I stop pushing and allow my body to recover very challenging, because there's no distraction from how I feel or way to fill the time, but that period ended up being no where near as long/bad as feared, probably helped by the duration of pushing too hard being relatively small. Think I'm still recovering from the term overall, but that's a different level of fatigue compared to recovering from a crash.
Although I started to feel better after exams, my resting rhr went from consistently hovering around 50 to consistently hovering around 53. Maybe insignificant, but as an overall average it seems like quite a lot to me, and I'm guessing it's maybe due to changes in immune system with the release of stress. What is good is there now doesn't seem to be much of a correlation with rhr and my menstrual cycle anymore, whereas that used to cause huge variations.
Ki vita is very dependant on my immune system and it's taken me a while to figure out how much to have, especially since symptoms have changed again. Straight after exams, sleep was great, but it soon started to become erratic as I recovered and I think that's related to the immune system/infections/how much ki I have. I always say I'm really sensitive to the weather, but I always fail to appreciate just how much. I think the cold weather in February was likely a major reason for my drop in energy then, and at the moment the increase in temperature is having a large affect too. Too much ki and I won't sleep, too little and I feel really tired and very hungry needing multiple snacks in the night. I'm still/continuously figuring it out, but I'm coming to the conclusion I need to reduce ki during the day and increase it before bed. Maybe it won't work, but that's my best solution at the moment.
Energy has massively improved since exams, and even though I wake up feeling really tired, I have lots of energy to do things. However the energy doesn't last the whole day, and i'm finding myself often back in an either on or off state. I'm either feeling great and wanting to do things, or I've used up a lot of my energy and most likely my mood dips considerably. I tend to not notice a gradual decrease in energy, but that may just be because I'm distracting myself. Instead, it tends to come on all of a sudden when I stop, which makes it harder to "be sensible" (whatever that means), and to save energy for the next day. Besides I often doubt if deliberately taking it painfully easy makes me feel any better than the level of "pushing" I'm currently doing, and it definitely makes me more bored. Maybe not the best way to go about recovery, but who knows what that is anyway, and everything I'm doing is within my acute energy limit.
The other thing that has improved since exams is exercise. Once again, I'm finding it hard to appreciate just how little fitness/ability to exercise I have. Having mostly been logging walking to the shops and for chats during the semester, I have a very low baseline. On a day to day basis, I don't know if exercise is making a difference to energy, for either better or worse; however I do think it improves how I feel on a long term basis and it improves mood. How I feel changes so much all the time anyway and changes in ki tend to result in larger variations than exercise. I think at the start I maybe got carried away, not appreciating that walking uphill is actually a lot more than I had been doing, and also letting emotions dictate my actions rather than a plan. My main goals at the moment are improve overall fitness and get used to running. Ideally I'd swim, but that seems more faff than it's worth at the moment, so will stick to running and walking. Running in Edinburgh is a lot flatter and more controlled than running uphill or as part of walks, and having some running in my life, reduces the chances of me doing things beyond my limits. I think the main thing with running is still just getting my body used to breathing and the action of it, which although the progress feels painfully slow, if I think in percentage increases it's actually improving very quickly. There's just a very very long way to go.