Running tempo (Rock Creek Trail) 32:59 [5] 4.85 km (6:48 / km) +49m 6:28 / km
ahr:148 max:172
This was a horrible run. And quite possibly the reason I didn't join the team call nor go to school the next day.
So I've already been feeling crappy about my running and lack of any results. My dad suggested I try a tempo run, and he told me to do it for 3km.
So here's the numbers:
Warmup: 1.01km, 6:59 mins (I know it is fast for a warmup, but it was mostly downhill)
Tempo: 2.62*km, 14:58 mins (avg pace 5:42)
Cooldown: 1.22km, 11:02 mins (walking for first half that was uphill)
The tempo distance is starred because I didn't really do the tempo for 2.62 km, that's just when I stopped my watch. I only lasted for 2.36 km, and then I walked the next 50 meters, and then I tempo ran another 100 meters and then stopped, and it took me a bit to realize that I should stop my watch and start it for the cool down.
So I was trying to keep the tempo at around 5:30/5:45 min/km. My dad suggested 6:00 or 6:30, depending on how I felt. But me, being too ambitious as usual, felt great running on the warm up and started the tempo very fast, so for some reason I though I could last a whole 3km like that. No, of course I couldn't. I was burning out fast, and at the 2.36km mark I burnt out completely. Now I soon as I stopped I regretted it, and that's why I still ran another 100 meters before fully stopping the tempo. Then the last 750meters I jogged. But I was so angry at myself and ashamed that I was not able to finish the run, and that I was just getting worse and lazier, and I wasn't able to push myself. That really demotivated me a lot, and I felt too ashamed and frustrated to join the call and even show up at school the next day. I know it sounds trivial, but I guess I'm too good at pushing myself down and not as good at getting myself back up. I guess that's something to work on.