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ok ok I've been peer pressured into doing a 2022 recap (not really but reading other logs makes me feel like I should do one).
It seems like everyone has overcome so much in 2022, and I'm incredibly proud of them. I admire this orienteering group so much, I'm so honored to have been able to grow up in the OUSA community.
The year for me started out with GNC, and running the WRE at that event. It was tough, and unsurprisingly, I could tell my fitness was not where it should have been, so I was quite relieved when the snowstorm came and I got to skip the long for a very sketchy and exhausting car ride home.
In February I turned 18 and celebrated by traveling to Czech Republic. No orienteering happened there but I learned how to snowboard which was great.
In March I went to DVOA's Big Woods event and, well, it was an interesting one. Day 1 in French Creek felt brutal. I felt like I had no fitness, like I was dying in the hills, and like I couldn't run at all, and I made some not ideal routechoices. However, my result wasn't as horrible as I was afraid it'd be. Day 2 was at Coventry Woods and I had an excellent run. I was actually moving way faster than I expected, and I was having fun, but I mispunched on control 15 or 16 out of 18 I think. And I was only off by less than 50m. I learned that I can't get too cocky- always check codes. I don't mispunch often, but that one hurt enough that I will be very careful still.
April was West Point, and sprint WOC team trials. I figured why not try out, at least I'll see how I compared. The first race was a sprint at Fort Tryon, which was quite hilly and I had a bad race. I guess technically it wasn't awful but I felt like I could've done so much better, but I was holding myself back because I couldn't push myself for some reason, and I was just very unhappy with that race. But then Day 1 of actual West Point races is where I redeemed myself. Although I woke up with a slightly sore throat, I had a pretty solid middle run, and then in the afternoon I crushed the sprint, mostly because I caught up to Oriana early on because she made a navigational mistake, and having her on my tail was pushing me to give it my all. It felt good. But then the next day, for the long, I woke up with a very very sore throat, but I figured, "hey yesterday it didn't stop me so I'm sure as soon as I get out there I'll be fine". I wasn't. Most of the race I felt like lying down on the ground in the middle of the woods and taking a nap. But I finished. And I'm proud of that. Sometimes that's all you can ask for.
In May I ended high school and I went for my first solo backpacking trip with Oliver. It was relieving to finally do it because I learned that I can trust myself with this, and that I do have the skills to take care of myself.
In the summer, I was in Czech Republic, and then I went to my first JWOC. Week 1, with all the forest trainings, was a blast. The woods were incredibly technical, and I loved it. It was a very fun challenge (until I got massive blisters on my toes and had to quit a training by taking off my shoes in the middle of the woods and walking back because I couldn't think through the pain). But then the wilfires came, so there was just sprint races. God I hated them. The sprint and the sprint relay sucked, since they were really hilly and I did not have the fitness to do well there. The sprint was manageable, I don't hate my result (I'm not proud of it either), but the sprint relay was awful. I psyched myself out for the mass start and I felt like I disappointed my team. Although I did learn, that the mass starts aren't as terrifying as I always think- I'm so slow that within the first 250m, I'm alone, everyone ran off into the distance, and I can run my own race. It's just the anxiety that tired me out and I wasn't able to race well. The urban relay, however, went quite well.
In the fall, I went to UUSKPOC, which was a blast, because man I missed the maps in the Poconos. I love that terrain so so much. I also went to US Masters O champs in NEOC territory. I didn't have great races either days, but I was satisfied with the first day a bit more. At least I enjoyed it a bit more. I was mostly just very hesitant running on rocks, because around that time I was messing my right ankle up every weekend. But also the hills were killing me, who am I kidding. I also course set at Cunningham Falls. I'm quite happy with the courses, but I would like to be able to go out and fieldcheck the map more so that the courses can be even better next time.
Then in November I went to JWOC Part 2. I'm so grateful I got to go. It was so fun, I think Portuguese terrain is my favorite, and on top of that, it wasn't smoldering hot there this time. I screwed up the middle (moreso physically than navigationally) which hurt, since I tend to be best at middles. But I just took the rest of the day to hole up in my bed, let myself feel all that disappointment and anger at myself, and the next day I went into the relay with a fresh mindset and I crushed it. And then I crushed the long, too. I even enjoyed it- which is insane, since longs are often my least favorite courses. And I got to finish with Anna, which was a nice end to JWOC 2022.
In December I didn't do as much training as I wanted. But I still finished off the year with a bang with the training camp at the Riley's house. It definitely helped highlight my shortcomings in orienteering, but at least I know what to work on.
In the end, this year was a tough one for me mentally. I had huge waves of up and down, some weeks I felt unstoppable but a lot of other weeks I could barely leave my bed. It's frustrating since I'm doing what I should be doing to take care and improve my mental health, yet this year it was just going downhill no matter what I did. The year was filled with compromises with myself- like going for runs that were just a mile long because at least they were something. Or at least going to campus for the day. Or at least brushing my teeth when I couldn't bring myself to shower. Or just existing when I couldn't do anything else. I know I shouldn't complain. I'm extremely grateful for all that I have. I'm grateful for orienteering, I'm grateful for the community, I'm grateful for Oliver, and I'm grateful that my family has the means to let me be able to travel to competitions. For this year, I just want to work on having a more positive outlook and trying to stop being frustrated when things aren't going the way I hoped they would, because at least they're going.