Probably shouldn't have run today. But my target for the year was the national ranking. A tenth place within 20% of the winner would be cause for celebration given the circumstances. So I dosed up on drugs and started with an open mind. Made a few tactical choices early in the first leg-
1. The forest was fast, even if I wasn't. Take the direct route as first preference. I think few of the wide track options were all that attractive.
2. I could not run with any speed. My red line threshold was very low. Any more than a brisk jog and I would collapse in a heaving heap. So I would have to rely on good navigation.
So the race progressed slow and steady until control 11 with only one minor nav blemish that lost me maybe 30 seconds. At this point I was in 11th place and close to my target time. All that was left were a control in a major gully and the final control at the spectator chute- and a big hill in green. In this short remaining segment of the course I lost five minutes and slipped 4 places. Basically, my body gave up. My mind followed. At times I had to hold on to a friendly tree to remain standing. I had nothing left for navigation. Came very close to giving up. The top of the hill appeared as I was considering the option.
Probably shouldn't have run. I thought afterwards of my grandfather who had a cold and insisted on digging post holes on a hot afternoon. He came home, went to bed and died. He was 70. It might be alarmist to have this thought, but after the finish, my pulse wouldn't drop below 100 despite a prolonged bout of sitting. Felt crap. Crappier than after any race ever. Numerous people came over and asked if I was OK, so I must have looked the part I was feeling. Slept most of the way home in the car, showered, went to bed and slept till 6.00 pm.
The QR trace is below so you can see how close I was to the finish before the consequences of my choice to run came home.
Next year will try again for the top ten ranking. ACT and Qld.
Have decided I don't want to feel like this again, so no relay tomorrow.