orienteering 53:00 [3]
Middle act.
I don't know why this didn't work today. I felt good at the start, I felt focused and I started hard which was evident by my splits to 5 in which I was in the lead. Then I read the green wrong going to 6 and began to panic that I was too short. I figured it out ok but I felt rushed and panicked for the rest of the course and my breath felt really short. I didn't get my breathing right and I think my head was all over the place so I was making more mistake.
I felt a bit deflated and in the last loop I really struggled. I lost my breath completely twice and went into complete hyperventilating panic mode at 19 and 21. And then when I finished I lost my breath again and had another hyperventilating episode. So embarrassing and I think I need to go to the doctor to check for asthma or maybe talk to a sports psychologist about why I am panicking so much.