This weekend has been really depressing for me on a running level. It was really fun on a this place is full of really great people level. I started fast and skipped early today, hoping that I could stick with Sam and co for a bit when they caught me again. In reality, they caught me earlier than I expected and I was completely unable to stick with them. I don't think I was losing much on trails but in the woods I was really losing. Messed 12 by not really reading well enough in the circle, and by 14 I was alone again, thinking how rubbish it was that I always end up alone on these mass start things. Then I got on the wrong trail, dropped too low on the wrong side of the spur, was set right by Hillary, and then promptly turned my ankle on the way down onto the right side of the spur. I sat for a bit and cried, not because my ankle hurt but because I was so disappointed with actually being so much further away from being fit than I thought I was, and life hasn't been much fun recently but I thought I was at least getting somewhere with that. Then I heard people and jogged down to see a large group of people, including Miss Jospe, and decided to continue after all. I then led them on the worst route ever to 17, and proceeded to pick a poor one to 18. Halfway there I decided I was having a rubbish time and decided to turn in, but Alex wouldn't let me. We jogged the butterflies together with the big group of people, and I started to enjoy myself again because Alex is amazing, the woods were beautiful and I saw a turtle. We were slowly inching ahead of the group until we picked the bad northern route to number 33, where everyone got past us. Still, we finished in under ten mins per km, I got a long terrain run out of today, and I really confirmed that I know some great people.
I don't really like long ungaffled mass start races at all. They don't play to my strengths one bit.
Sorry for everyone I was upset at today. You collectively made me feel a lot better. Thank you all.
Edit: Quickroute here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/faintgirl/5724348613/...
Looking at the route there were more stupid route choices than I thought too. Many things to work on.