Training Log Archive: Becks

I finally pretty much lost it this week. It's been a long time coming. I tried to relax after Rob's parents left and I just got more and more stressed until I couldn't sleep or think. Worried about career stuff, watching my oldest friend's house surrounded by water on the news and being unable to go and help her out, annoyed by the fact I had no friends to hang out with and do something fun with on New Year, (small number of friends elsewhere or baby'ed), and finally coming to the realisation, at 3am in the morning, that Kitch is right, it's not worth staying here until I get a tenure track job. I need to swallow my pride, come home, and do another post doc. My mental state so directly affects my health, and while all the medical indications are that I'm super healthy (except maybe a tad overweight, but who cares), I don't feel like I am. Getting out of bed yesterday was a big struggle, only achieved by pancakes (at lunchtime) and the promise of a State Park.

So, on Monday, the emails start going out. Oxford and Edinburgh first bets, and it also depends on Rob's progress through interviews (currently good). But it's better to be separate in the UK for a year or so than separate between continents.

I need to feel like I'm moving and I currently feel stuck. I love my O' friends, but they're too far away, and I love my workmates (and being in the lab actually), but I can't just work. I need music and more orienteering and love and life. And my Mum. I need my Mum.

Sorry for the self indulgence, but sometimes I don't think we talk about stuff like this enough.

So anyway, today Rob and I spent four hours or so writing a surprising amount of our paper (it's finally getting there!), and then I went for a run round the neighbourhood. Pushed to the tougher edge of cruising at the end but not beyond.

C • aliens in the trees 1

C • did you ever 3

C • I understand the sense of f... 2

Coach is killing me, so I redid the assessment. I obviously did it too fast because I pretty much have the same level workouts again now :s. Nemesis, didn't manage to do full climbers for the final round. Totally dead.

Neighbourhood shuffle. Better progress up the hills than I was anticipating. I am full of snot, but it seemed to clear with some very satisfying snot rockets :)

Decided to do a bit of a Freeletics bootcamp this week. Turned out Freeletics thought that was a good idea too and gave me Hell Days. I switched to strength only too. First up was Prometheus, which felt amazing till the final set when it suddenly got insanely hard. Then 3/4 Hermes which is a silly workout involving going back outside into the slush. I will be disappointed if this kind of day is all we get for wintry weather this year.

C • Prometheus 2

And on the seventh day, Becky rested.

C • daffs 4

Visited Charlie's favourite today - People's State Forest. Kitchens did not plan their eating in advance, so I did my run while they ate lunch. Then we went for a walk. I did the south bit, we walked the north bit. Just beat the rain.

Extremely tired today as we were woken by a fire alarm at about 1.30 in the morning (only got back from NYC at midnight). Managed to figure out it was;t coming from anywhere in the house, and then realised it was coming from next door. The neighbours are away for the week, so we thought we should check it out. Turns out they'd left their fire alarm out on the deck (?!?!?), and once the rain started, it short circuited the alarm and it was going off continuously. So Rob climbed the fence, removed, the battery, and we tried to get back to sleep, but we were wet and no longer tired. Grrr!

I needed the loo, but I didn't beat the Kitchens to the bathroom, so I drove to West Rock, where they have closed up the toilet :O. So I had to dive behind a bush and then went for a run. Not feeling massively sprightly but nice to run somewhere other than the streets. Then into NYC for an aircraft carrier (rubbish, apart from the Space Shuttle) and the Guggenheim (better). Also extremely good bread based products from Sullivan St Bakery.