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slept:8.9 (rest day)
I have some poison oak rash cropping up in a few places, and I hit it with some mostly dried up fluocinonide cream I found; based on past experience, I expect this to only be slightly helpful. Other than that and some modest soreness in my legs and back, I don't seem to be much the worse for wear after a weekend of tough races.
I'm still feeling sort of down today about my long race yesterday. The long is usually my strongest discipline, and I'm quite disappointed to have performed so poorly.
Negative apects of my run:
- When I started, I wasn't ready to race, mentally or physically (shoes untied, struggling to get control descriptions in holder).
- I forgot how important it is to use my compass in this terrain, and I made costly direction mistakes on controls #1 and #2.
- I was cranky and struggled with trying to be more positive for essentially the whole race; continued mistakes were caused by and fueled the crankiness, in an unfortunate positive feedback loop.
- I failed to take the easy (and faster) around route from #7 to #8, something I usually do well.
- I felt relatively tired in the legs and clumsy moving through the terrain; after overshooting #8, I was standing more or less still, tripped backward on a stump, and sat down in a patch of poison oak. This made me extremely cranky.
- I was unmotivated and had trouble pushing; my average heart rate was consequently quite low.
- It is worrisome to me that I can't (or at least didn't) prepare to have a good run in this important race.
Positive aspects of my run:
+ I mostly got up the hills well, even though my legs felt bad.
+ I had the second fastest time from #11 to the finish, just behind winner Oystein Sorensen, so my fitness is pretty good.
+ I never gave up and worked hard to keep paying attention and pushing, even though it wasn't going well; this allowed me to have a bad run instead of a horrible one.
+ I generally made good or at least reasonable route choices.
+ I learned more about the mental side of racing: I was in an aversive (avoiding) mental state, which made me prone to tuning out (not reading the map or paying attention to what I was doing). Eventually, I had to read the map to get around the course, and I had to slow down to do it, after missing better map-reading opportunities. I still don't know why I was in an aversive state, though. And why was I cranky? Sometimes bad things (I made a mistake, the course isn't as fast as I wanted, there's lot's of poison oak on the course) happen and roll off my back, so why did they stick in my craw on Sunday?