Running 15:00 [3] 3.0 km (5:00 / km)
slept:8.0
Shakeout before work ended with hip mobility and the calf stretch. This morning is the best my calf has felt in the past week or so.
Running 1:05:00 [3] 13.0 km (5:00 / km)
Preact
Roll
15 WU
Full Active
jog around ~5 min
strides
3km race (11:00)
10 barefoot
10 with shoes
hip mobility
Stretch, roll, ice bath
I am pretty frustrated with the way I have been racing. I just feel like I have been taking 1 step forward 2 steps backwards. I have had a busy and rough past 2-3 weeks, but that is no excuse to not perform well and have a good race. I have been making an effort to do the little things but I think I need to make more of an effort and commit to giving it more in workouts. I went into today with a pretty good head on my shoulders and although I was running around with kids today I thought I was going to run well. And I think that is a good mindset to have, but I didn't do as much reflection on the pain side of things. I thought because I felt good and like I was going to run well that that meant that would be reality. As soon as the gun went off that excitement and positive energy I head went out the window and I completely became overwhelmed. Maxie, Ben, and Noah seemed to gap me after the first lap and I was too busy freaking out and thinking about things that will not help me be the runner I want to be. They drifted forward and I tried to catch Noah but I didn't try hard enough. I don't know why I can't get it together and get competitive and brave and just run a good race. I feel that I am capable of more but my race results and workouts have been mediocre these last 3 races. I put in a lot of work, but I need to work more in workouts the way I get after it in pool. I need to spend some time reflecting, and I don't want to make another excuse but my days have been packed. I am out of the house 12-14hours most weekdays and when I get home I only have time to eat dinner and do the dishes and then it suddenly is bed time. I am still figuring out what works and doesn't work for this new way of living. I just feel like I run a lot and train a lot to only be a mediocre runner and be getting slower. I need to change my attitude in workouts and really work efficiently hard. Tomorrow is a new day and saturday a new chance to get it all out. I finished feeling like I worked hard but like I could've been more brave and gotten a better result. I don't think I smiled once and I was too caught up in figuring out how many laps I had to go and the fact I was so far behind.