horseback riding (english) 1:00:00 
Lesson on William. Obstacle course type activity, with weaving cones, circling the barrel, a few small jumps, etc. Except without stirrups to make it hurt!! Totally not up to par tonight, mostly due to the remaining effects of withdrawal thanks to going off the SNRI on Friday.
This week was tough, although I've done this twice before now and did wean down slowly over 2 months. Coming off of Effexor has been about 1,000 times worse than coming off of Zoloft ever was. Aside from a little lightheadedness, last weekend wasn't bad, but on Monday started the "brain zaps" anytime I moved my eyes quickly or substantially. And of course I have to do that a lot at work.
I had to look it up to see if this was "normal" - it is - but still creepy. Basically it was a feeling like vertigo, nausea, and strange energy or vibration for 2-3 seconds after moving my eyes. The weirdest feeling like there was a rubber band attached to my eyes and running into my brain, and every time they stopped moving the rubber band kept vibrating for awhile.
Over the week this has been less and less, and hopefully now that I'm off this crap I'll be able to lose some weight. Of course we'll see how long it is until panic attacks return and become debilitating enough that I need to do something again (usually I can go about 18 months). I'm rather tired of this cycle - I can be happy but fat on meds or skinny but sick off of them, but apparently happy and skinny is too much to ask.