Swimming 22:00  1.2 km (18:20 / km)
Have really been having difficulty getting back in the pool.
In my memory, each session was a struggle, I make tiny improvements (if any) and I'm always anxious about how my shoulder is going to pull up. Other people jumping in the pool who haven't swum for months casually knocking out a couple of km at sub 20min/km just makes the mountain seem even higher and more like being able to swim well is a fluke of nature, rather than the result of thought and effort and training. (Even though I know that there are previous years in which they have put thought and effort and training into swimming and it's probably a lot like riding a bike - once you can, you always can.)
So I've basically been in a funk about it and not swimming and coming up with heaps of excuses not to swim. (Though I will pay the ten days that I was sick. It would have been bad to swim then.)
So today, I bribed myself with a super-easy session in which I was never going to take the fins off and never going to do any of the drills that make me tense up and get anxious and that I would stop as soon as I got tired or things started to get niggly.
Flippers at all times:
100 x free (felt dreadful and out of breath going Very Slowly)
100 x backstroke
300 x free
400 x free
300 x free (easy, easy, could be mistaken for dead I was so lazy)
Stopped because my arms were tired. NO SHOULDER PAIN AT ALL!!! WOOT!!!
And now I remember that I quite like swimming, so next time it shouldn't be quite so hard to get out the door and down to the pool.