Decent first half, but then I didn't get the tongo control and my mental state fell apart after that.
The two major controls where time was lost were 16 and 22.
16 was a pretty clear case of not being aggressive enough with the tongo. Lots of green and rocky ground, but I didn't have the right mentality going into it. For a leg like that, I need to focus more sticking to my compass no matter what. It's very easy for me to fall back into a more passive mindset.
22 was frustrating because it looks like I actually did spike the control, but I didn't see the flag. And once you're not sure where you are on that hillside, it's difficult for anything to make sense.
Days like today are when I ask myself if it's worth to focus this much on orienteering. It makes you wonder what's the point if, after so much training, you're still making the same mistakes and struggling to feel like you're improving.
At this stage, I think it's important to look at my personal big picture. Thinking back to when I was a teenager and going to JWOC. Technically I was awful. Really unstable. The main reason I was able to make it onto the JWOC teams was because I was fitter than most of the juniors at the time.
Comparing myself to where I was reminds me just how far I have in fact come. The precise navigation necessary in orienteering has never come as easy to me as it seems to come to others. At this point in my orienteering career, I expect it never will come easy. Some people seem to have a mind that molds easily to it and others don't.
But I obviously can improve and have drastically. But these days happen. It would have been nice to be where I am now years ago, but that's not my story. So, nose to the grindstone and enjoy the process.