Running (Trail) 1:05:00 [3]
Trail run in the pouring rain :) Same as monday, but running alone this time. I paused for about 60s at the boulder clearing to look at the view. Had thoughts regarding how destructive my behaviour has been recently, pondered whether I was developing bipolar disorder, but decided my impulsive decisions are not consistent with a manic episode but with emotional stress. Then I decided that I've made the right decision to just focus on having fun and not thinking about anything else...if that's possible...but realising at some point I will have to decided whether I attempt to gain residency here after my visas run out, or whether I return home, but for myself with no expectations. I'm not ready to make that decision yet, so I turned around and ran home. A lot to think in a minute!